Friday, November 28, 2008
yesterday the most adorable little boy smiled and waved to me on the lrt. it's wonderful how a complete stranger can totally make your day.
God wants me to learn something from all this. God is putting me through the test. i know it. i just wish i knew exactly what i'm suppose to do. trust Him? yes i do. but there's gotta be some action on my part too right?
somtimes i wish my skin was as thick as chandra's. (hi chandra if you're reading this, though i highly doubt it, i don't mean it in a bad way i still love you.) then maybe all the hurt will just bounce off me and i won't be so affected by it.
just had cell in the morning. i guess this week's lesson really applies to what i'm going through now. 'God put me here for a reason and i've got to work on it' -ker yew
yes i'll work on it. i wish i knew the right things to say, how to go about solving this. apparently taking the blame doesn't work cos it just builds a lot of hurt inside of me. and one day i'll just explode.
i wish i had a bigger capacity to love unconditionally. to give because i want to and not cos i want something in return. to be more patient and understanding.
God help me.
then i'd understand and be more patient. then maybe it wouldn't hurt so bad.
favourite song when i'm emo-ing: KT Tunstall's other side of the world. it's a super nice song you should all listen to it.
Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change,
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like water
All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same just like water
Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're on the other side of the world to me
On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers
And feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along
Can you help me
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore
mel had a real bad day. and she can't get over it. she doesn't get why the things she loves the most have to screw up. all the time.
yesterday the most adorable little boy smiled and waved to me on the lrt. it's wonderful how a complete stranger can totally make your day.
God wants me to learn something from all this. God is putting me through the test. i know it. i just wish i knew exactly what i'm suppose to do. trust Him? yes i do. but there's gotta be some action on my part too right?
somtimes i wish my skin was as thick as chandra's. (hi chandra if you're reading this, though i highly doubt it, i don't mean it in a bad way i still love you.) then maybe all the hurt will just bounce off me and i won't be so affected by it.
just had cell in the morning. i guess this week's lesson really applies to what i'm going through now. 'God put me here for a reason and i've got to work on it' -ker yew
yes i'll work on it. i wish i knew the right things to say, how to go about solving this. apparently taking the blame doesn't work cos it just builds a lot of hurt inside of me. and one day i'll just explode.
i wish i had a bigger capacity to love unconditionally. to give because i want to and not cos i want something in return. to be more patient and understanding.
God help me.
watchin u;
at 10:03 PM
then i'd understand and be more patient. then maybe it wouldn't hurt so bad.
favourite song when i'm emo-ing: KT Tunstall's other side of the world. it's a super nice song you should all listen to it.
Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change,
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like water
All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same just like water
Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're on the other side of the world to me
On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers
And feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along
Can you help me
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore
mel had a real bad day. and she can't get over it. she doesn't get why the things she loves the most have to screw up. all the time.
watchin u;
at 7:42 AM